2008-05-24
To the core.
Hello.
Yes, hell-o. I should've known there'd be hell the moment I decided to get involved in a project manned by you. It was innocent enough, wasn't it? Did you think it would've been a good idea? Did you think it'd blow everyone away, bring in the trumpets and the banners and the Hallejulahs?
I've been patient. I've tried my best to accomodate you and more than once I've made excuses for you. But there is a limit to everything and here is mine. I detest you. That's saying something because it is hard to make me hate. Well, congratulations! You've earned it, and you've earned it with flair.
I'm tired of it. Sickened by you. You have a knack for causing chaos, and I've come amazingly close to ruining some good friendships because of the shit we had to go through. But once again, congratulations!: you've strengthened the friendships again because now we share a common hate. Simply fantastic, isn't it? We come full circle now. Would you like me to rephrase what I've said? You disgust me.
I know I've said this before but god it is hard to extract such language from me. I am going so far as to lose all my inhibitions just to direct this to you. Don't think I like it - you think people enjoy reading this? No. Of course not. Such are the messes you create. Such are the traps you lay out neatly and snap snap SNAP us all up. We're bleeding, okay? Are you happy now? Do you think it makes you look any better? Whoever decided to put you as an I/C must have been completely DRUGGED UP, by the looks of it.
Stop it. I speak for a majority when I say please stop dragging us into any other crap you have in mind. I am this close to grabbing you and giving you a hard shake. Anything to either knock some sense into you or knock your head off your shoulders. Either is FINE. Considering how you like dragging people into messes I'm pretty sure it'd be FAIR considering all the shit you've stirred up. Well, happy day for you.
Oh, and another thing: stop involving people I respect too. This is just going to ruin more relationships, do you understand? No? Well, thought so, don't think you can comprehend anything that hasn't been spat out of your mouth as a suggestion. Wait no, as a DEMAND. Because we don't have a CHOICE, do we? We just have to keep playing your stupid GAMES and continue wasting our time on your bloody ideas which may have seemed good at first, but did you even THINK about the INCONVENIENCES you would've brought to us? Did you even stop to think about US before you freely gave consent to things we don't even KNOW about??
I am this close. This close. To lodging a complaint. To get you kicked out once and for all, out of this place where you do not deserve to be in, with people you do not deserve to work like dogs and then blame when YOU mess up. The only thing that stops me now is the fact that the higher-ups probably won't listen to me. They'll stand by you because you're on "their side". I'd probably just be blacklisted, and being blacklisted due to the likes of you? As if it'd be worth it.
I'll repeat this to you, just in case you didn't catch it:
I hate you. Got it? I absolutely detest you to the bone, and yes, I do indulge in fantasies of you falling down four flights of stairs or getting fired or simply getting the hell out of my life. Of our lives, because there are so many other people who deserve to be compensated ten times over by you. A hundred times over a million times over, it is freaking UNCOUNTABLE because of everything you've screwed up for us.
This does it, okay? You can go get someone else to be your lackey. Unless you want to wait for smses that are days late. Not unless you want me to conveniently forget to do things. Not unless you want everything completely messed up. Not unless you want me to do things that you most obviously do not want.
Because guess what? That's exactly what we've been tolerating from you.
inquisite at 9:36 p.m.